As a believer I know that when I am doing something in God’s will satan is going to do all he can to make me stumble, get discouraged and pretty much just cause me heartache. Am I doing something against God’s will and should I be worried since I have not received any attack from satan since the kick off of the women’s ministry?
I have had some small things, more like annoyances since the minstry kicked off: money is very tight and we’re struggling a bit to make ends meet this week and the senior adult women of the church don’t seemed at all thrilled about this new ministry being born. Would these be considered stumbling blocks? Hmm…just something to pray about I suppose.
Also, I have been reading a blog by an old high school acquaintance named Sarah. She’s so wise and spiritually mature, I just love reading her musings and her walk with the Lord. Here is an example of some of her writing that really stuck a chord with me:
“I mean, Christ displays unlimited patience to us and all of our continous faults and mistakes. I can honestly say that I am learning patience. But really, how patient is patient enough? And I’m good with being patient on my time schedule….but God’s time schedule, I am learning, is a lot different. I think in terms of weeks and He thinks in terms of ridiculously long years. I think in terms of hours and He is considering how many months. It’s frustrating when I know what’s going on and I just can’t get there yet. I am confident of what is going to happen, I just can’t do anything about it.”
Anyway, I long to be this intuitive. I want to yearn for Christ and His word…I want to understand His word in a deeper more intimate way. Its like we have this great friendship but I want so much more. I know it’s not Him who is holding it back – it’s me. I know I am a sinner and will be until the day He returns, yet I am to strive for perfection. How perfect are we supposed to be, we are human and cursed since the fall of Adam. I know there is sin in my life that is keeping me from falling deeply in love with Him; I just pray that it will be revealed to me sooner rather than later so I can fall more in love with my Savior.
